there is always some fight within yourself when you are nearing a major breakthrough in your life
your current self just doesn't want to let go of the good thing you’ve got going on right now
good defined as
comfortable
familiar
expected
not necessarily good defined as
good for you
change is hard
especially when you keep having that loud and intense inner battle of two voices within yourself
that you wish you could just rip out of your mind
tell them to play nice and work it out
or they are just going to have to just stay there in timeout until they can get along
one voice tells you
that you are ready to take that next step
you are strong
you are capable
you’ve got what it takes
you can rise above
the other voice laughs at you and says
who are you fooling
you can’t change
look at what you’ve done in the past
what makes you think that today will be any different
my head is spinning right now just thinking about it
because that has been the battle going inside my mind for months
and i am here today to tell you that as loud as that debbie downer voice has been screaming in my mind
she has now faded to a whisper
that duct tape must have done the job
no in all fairness i cannot pin point one major event that has triggered this most incredible quieting of the mind and propelled me on to my next level of growth
it has been the compilation of many, many little efforts and the surrendering of myself to faith
faith in me
faith in my God
and faith in the circumstances I have been currently blessed with
it has been a loooong fight
and i have no doubt that that duct taped voice in my head may find her way to a bullhorn once again but next time she’s going to find a new me
one that will have grown in my inner debbie downer silencing skills
change is in the air once again
so watch for some tremendous growth coming on all fronts over here as i climb to that next level of achievement
