Desire

With the beginning of school comes an opportunity for renewal, renewal of habits lost with the unstructured nature of summer.  I have been thinking a lot of why that is, why do I suffer from such an ebb and flow of discipline in the things which should be placed at high priority no matter the season.  {didn't I just post on this? here and here}  I've determined that one of the reasons that I struggle to be disciplined is that I let being tired get in the way of getting things done.

Being tired, boy that's lame. I let being tired overrun my time I have to do what could literally energize me - exercise, spiritual study, hobbies, etc.  I am searching and praying for that increased desire to take a step in faith: to set that alarm, to actually get up out of bed, to turn off that computer or phone that I often go to zone out, and to get off that couch after a very, very long day of going from one child's needs to the next so that I can receive that energy I so desperately need to fulfill those priorities.

It really comes down to desire.  Desire.  What do I desire most?  I need to reevaluate.  Filling my mind with good reading has definitely lent to some good thinking.  These quotes have been going around in my mind.

"Desires dictate our priorities, priorities shape our choices, and choices determine our actions.  The desires we act on determine our changing, our achieving, and our becoming."

Elder  Dallin H. Oaks, Desire

"God bless you with the will and desire to be an example to the world and to live the balanced, righteous life He expects His children to live during their mortal probation."

Elder L. Tom Perry, The Tradition of a Balanced, Righteous Life

"[T] oo often our actions suggest that we live far beneath [our] potential...and settle for experiences far below our privileges."

Pres. Dieter F. Uchtforf, Your Potential, Your  Privilege - {as I've related to motherhood}

Such truth!  So many things to think about, questions to ask myself, changes that need to be made.  

Are the desires I am pursuing the kind of things that will help me to become the person I want to be?

God expects us to live a balanced life here on the Earth, so he must provide a way to achieve it.  What kind of tools has he blessed me with to achieve it?

What potential does God see in me?  Do I see it as well or am I settling?  If the privileges are available, what must I do to qualify for them?

Such work to be done on little ole me.  I pray that I may do what the Lord has personally admonished me, to "work tirelessly".  If you see me, remind me that I'm not tired, that I'm working tirelessly with the right desires in my heart towards my potential.  See what I say:)  I'm curious.