Thursday, October 07, 2010
Something I Thought I'd Never Have to be Grateful For...
Truthfully I don't know where to begin.
Thanks to all of you who have kept my Daddy and our family in your prayers and thoughts, for those who participated in the fast, some even fasting for the very first time. Thank you for the calls, the messages, the visits, the yummy comfort food at the hospital, the help with my kids-even when they've been cranky and/or sick. Thank you.
Last night we gathered in my Daddy's hospital room as the doctor told us the news. The pathologists and the doctor are still in disagreement as to the exact disease which my father has, but all agree that it is some type of lymphoma...cancer...that horrible word I can barely bring myself to say. There are 50 types of lymphoma and they are still running tests on his bone marrow to distinguish exactly which type he has. The doctor however is very sure that he knows which type it is and has reassured us that is treatable and generally curable and feels like the pathologists-who are even disagreeing amongst themselves- will be in agreement today.
After seeing my father in the worst state I have ever seen and then imagining all these possible reasons why and having them marinate in my mind for over a week, it was amazing how comforted I felt when the doctor said that it was treatable and curable. I didn't ever think that I would have to been grateful that my Daddy has a treatable and curable cancer.
It has been a roller coaster of emotions and I know we have really only just started this battle. Many months of treatment and tests are to come. I am already physically and emotionally exhausted. I can't even imagine what my mother must feel, what my father feels. What I do know, I know for a surety. Heavenly Father loves my father. He is one of His most valiant servants. I know He is watching over him and my family. I know my family is eternal through the ordinances of His Holy Temple. I know my Savior has felt my father's pain and has taken it upon himself through His Atonement. We must have faith and hope. Please remind me of this testimony as time goes on. I will need to rely on it.
Please continue to pray for us, continue to offer service, continue to lift our spirits. Thank you all so so very much!